MAKING OF MODERN ANAND

                                                                MAKING OF MODERN ANAND

 I watched ANAND movie, the day after Rajesh khanna died. Old movies make me energetic and after watching anand, I smiled and cried simultaneously (hard to do so in real). It was midnight, the movie got over and I never thought I would take up pen and pencil instead of lying on bed hiding myself under quilt. Actually, I searched for pen, paper and started writing my experience on it.

     Zindagi...... kaise hai paheli haaaye …kabhi ye hasaaein, kabhi ye rulaae (my facebook status the day he died) has very true meaning in each lyrics. Even kahin door jab din dhal jaae is a wonderful all time favorite song. If given a chance, I will buy the copyrights of it (although many are there in queue) and convert it into a wonderful tale. While, I watched the movie long back in my childhood, some 10 years ago. This time I had excellent opportunity of watching the second half (equally painful).

It gives a special message to all humans, to believe in yourself and live life to the fullest (negativity ignored). Anand knows how to enjoy life and make friends with anyone who is passing by the roadside. He knew the secret of how to make the remaining days of his life the worth living. The story is about a man (who suffers from cancer and comes to Mumbai to meet his friend and live the remaining days of his life to the fullest) and here he meets babu moshaae (dr.baneerjee, who 1^st shares a doctor patient relationship with anand but later he becomes his friend and at the end he even manages to get some homeopathic medicine just to save anand’s life).

      In the movie, Tape recorder was introduced, (today mobile phones do have all functions) which played an immense role from start until the end. Even I thought of buying one to record lovely voice of my near and dear ones. The moment you miss them, you ON the recorder and they are with you.  Sometimes I do really feel the olden era was very calm, quite and beautiful place to live ( but never thought , even people back then could suffer from cancer )

      The message received is simple yet powerful. When you know …you or your dear one is counting the last few days of his/her life, just make those days the most memorable days of their entire life. Even if death comes, you have no regrets to it. Make those days simply worth living and loving. Be a part of their bliss (babu moshaae did) and do not make them gloomy. Stop sympathizing with them as an alternative be in love with them. Create a history, be the real life anand getting inspired by reel life and  not only anand but also we need babu moshaae’s too. LET US CHANGE IT ….

    Instead of shedding tears, blow the air of happiness. Do not give your shoulder to cry but hold their hands and take them out …let them enjoy the fresh air, the positivity; make them feel the aroma outside. They can at least die happily.

    The last scene (most of us cried watching this scene)…

                 Anand cried before dying, he does not want to die without meeting dr.banerjee (babu moshaae), who went to take homeopathic medicine from one of his colleague believing it could save anand from dying. Anand asked to play the recorder and the poetry was played (which was recorded a night before by dr.banerjee). Told you Mr. Recorder played a very important role.

Listening to his poetry, he left for the heavenly abode. He screamed babumoshaae as his last words. Not everyone gets the chance of recording or living a life like anand ( who always had a smile on his face ) nor we get dr.banerjee every time . we all have anand somewhere hidden in us . Just we need to find anand in us and start enjoying our life with a new start.

      However, wait,

 Today’s anand has so much of stress and tension with him. Even if he knows he is going to die, he becomes more anxious. More burdens welcome you. Arranging finance, insurance, spouse, kids, other family members …all this arrangement takes those remaining days of your life and you die a stressful and tensed death.

      Zindagi Badi Honi Chahiye, Lambi Nahi Babu Moshai.'

SATYAMEV JAYATE: PART 2 ( OUR MOVE )

                     SATYAMEV JAYATE: PART 2

        OUR MOVE (help the nation by helping yourselves)

              Previous article was just the foundation, now it is the right time to talk about it, to do a bit commencing our part.

                    With reference to last Sunday’s episode i.e., 22 July 2012, it was about water.

Each one of us (even the birds and animals) know its importance. Water plays a very important part in our life … we are studying about it since our school days. Earlier we had water in plenty with us, however it is depleting nowadays.

                 Tears rolled down my face when I saw the pictures shown in the episode. They were all real. Circumstances have become worse and it continues to do so. Our one time holy water GANGA ji is no longer the holy water (see the pictures). People bath in the banks of river Ganga, Yamuna and so on holy rivers. They not only bath, but wash their cloths as well.

                 Riverbanks are too much polluted and we are the one who are doing it. Holy places like kashi, Mathura, vrindavan, Haridwar, Banaras and many more are polluted now.

                   We call INDIA as our own country, then why are we polluting it?

Are we taking it all for granted? The place where we live, we call it as our own home and we keep it clean every time. So, why not our country? Consider on it.

 A small step of yours will encourage others. As it is well said, CHARITY BEGINS AT HOME ….

  So let us start OUR MOVE on keeping our surrounding clean, maintenance of ponds, lakes and tube wells. Water is the important element of our life and we cannot let it go this way.

One move of your, will give confidence to your neighbors and friends. This is how you the initiative will start and reach to its aim soon. 

    Let the superior authority think on this. Why should we?  Mind-set should be thrown out of our mind.                                                                  

                 We should take our move, let others follow us. Gradually and little by little every one will develop into a part of it and we would achieve our aim i.e. preservation of water.

for instance, if one day you forget to carry your water bottle in office/college , recall that moment how it feels…. its terrible. Buying water from stores is not a cheap deal. Several monopoly retailers are making money by selling bisleri or any water bottle at price higher than that. You end up buying bisleri paying 2 rupees extra to the shopkeeper (you are helpless you feel). However not many of us are aware of the phone numbers which are available exactly up on the board of this shopkeepers only.

Most of the stalls in railway stations have this emergency phone number to report on high price charged by the shopkeeper. Next time you feel you are been charged more than the MRP, look around for the number, dial and report it. Water is a costly deal nowadays. So save it by making its use in an efficient manner.

 

  Those pictures revealed in the episode were so awful. Comparing to foreign country rivers, our rivers stand nowhere. They are spotless whereas ours are contaminated. Once I saw the pictures, something really strained me. I felt helpless for sometime and could visualize the complete mismanaged organization of water.

   Time to take our move. Do little for you and the society as a whole. One show like satyamev jayate can encourage us, so why can’t we avail the benefit of it .Take part in water conservation and save rainwater .Visit the satyamev jayate site and you get the details of it. How to save water and with less or no money spent.

     High time friends, our move will motivate thousands of people around us and it can multiple to lacks. Out of crores of people, even if thousands do take step forward, VICTORY is all ours.

Come forward do something to save your own nation. The nation is already being corrupted now don’t let the environment fall victim of it. We have time to save it from being eradicated.

Let us unite together and make promises to ourselves to win over the evil path by spreading awareness regarding water conservation all over again.

 

SATYAMEV JAYATE ( part 1 )

SATYAMEV JAYATE

_{PART 1: AFTER EFFECTS}

                  As everybody speculated about the much hyped show SATYAMEV JAYATE to be breaking all the records so far regarding the TRPs as well as the altogether different concept by Mr. Perfectionist aamir khan. So far so good. Show went on air. aamir sir wanted each and every family member to sit together and watch it with family , as few years back families in India used to do ( nowadays it has become impossible to sit with family and watch something on television , thanks to our out of the box directors and creative heads )  . Remember our childhood wasn’t the same. Ramayana, Mahabharata , Shri Krishna , Vishnu puran and many more mythological stories use to come on Doordarshan ( later on cable too ) and we use to sit with our family and watch it on Sundays . Aamir sir wanted this same thing to repeat again (history repeats) for SATYAMEV JAYATE.

Promotion was done so tactfully, it seemed everything is going to be perfect.  Although the show was doing rounds on controversies since the beginning.

   The concept was to show the real India (India behind bars). No doubt, the creative team (including aamir khan) has done a great job. I wonder how they managed to get information about such critical issues (many of us were unaware of various issues of India till it was aired on satyamev jayate). Master mind was so terrific that it was aired on whole star network as well as once a upon a time, our very own Doordarshan.

       the various issues raised on show like female foeticide, child sexual abuse, dowry system in India, medical malpractices , love marriage and honour killings in India to name a few…and recently old age ( our generation needs to learn something from this episode ) .

   All this episodes had very good impact on our society (still I can’t see any change around me but only on papers).    

    Recently aamir khan tweeted about the changes that happened 

 “Great news guys! Maharashtra govt. announces Generic medicines to be made available! Thank u CM sir Mr. Chavan & Health Min Mr. Suresh Shetty”

This impact was due to the episode shown on medical malpractices.

Another tweet was made about law passed by lok sabha against child abuse.

Hey guys, great news! The Lok Sabha has passed the Protection of Children against Sexual Offences Bill today!!! Unbelievable!!! Super News! 

 This was aamir sir’s step towards our nation. What is our stake on this?

We live in a democratic country, please recall those civics lesson done at school time… for the people, by the people and to the people.

   Unity is strength and divided we fall. Heard of it many times, lets make it a live example by uniting and proving the proverb true for coming generation with a live example of us.

 We Indians do shy about doing something which is extrovert or extra ordinary thing. I would say, throw away your wariness (reserve that for your marriage) and come out of you shell; participate with people who are already into helping INDIA.

  Just few episodes of satyamev jayate and decided to help INDIA, help ME and help US. So why can’t others (who regularly followed the show) contribute little.

 Your little contribution to society will build a proud NATION again, which was corrupted by our beloved politicians (not all are terrible). Madness of few and jail yatra for all. 

MORTIFIED

                                                                MORTIFIED

How it feels to get dumped by someone whom you love ??????

well, we have random answers for it....one feels like his /her life has probably come to an end.

Life becomes uneasy ( you don't have to overreact )

you stop behaving like normal ones instead you become the most lunatic person in the world.

Your friends & family ( only if they know about your breakup ) turns sympathetic to you ( you don't want them to be, still they too overreact sometimes) . Unnecessary your eyes have to suffer ( you cry as if you lost someone important from you life ) . Chill !!!!! this is just a break up and your life doesn't stops here . Throw away your titan raga and buy one Fast-track watch ( move on ) .

The moment your partner dumps you, you don't exactly know what to do next. Scratching our own head helps sometimes but not always. Some even go and check themselves in mirror to check any pimples( they get scared to see many ) .

breakups are not always the reason for one to become sad or end his/her life. People tend to become victims by doing such acts which proves them insane ( empty head ..the guy/chic with no brain types ) .

after breaking up you become mad , complete dumb. You don't exactly know what you are doing at present . You feel like jumping from the kitchen table or cutting you hand with butter knife ( believe me people actually tries such idiotic things at home ) . you do enter in the loo but forgets to close the door till someone enters it . You are MORTIFIED ( ashamed & embarrassed )

now . You are in your own world thinking and assuming things as to why he/she left you ( dumping sounds more perfect ) . life becomes useless for you . Life is nothing without him/her????????

WAKE UP !!!!! don't you recall the time before they entered your life....your life was moving with the usual pace . You completed your college assignments on time ( for some it may be school home-works ) and you were regular at college attending lectures . Now you do go to college but sit at one corner reserved for you at canteen from where you can check out new guys/chic's, may be or 

you end up thinking again & again about that filthy animal ( who dumped you without reason ) . you stop believing those fairy tales and novels where it is nicely decorated at the end of each book/story ..and they lived happily ever after. 

time doesn't stop however you do . For you everything is happier if he/she is with you . Internet helps you find ways/reasons to be happy after breakups . your search words are...how to get out of break ups or what after break up??? ...useless people posts worthless comments for your questions and you fool follows their answer . 

You feel ashamed of facing your friends after your breakup ( not because they will sympathize with you but you don't want them to know the reason why are you dumped ) . friends are the instant support you get while you are going through the breakup period however your friend should not be interested in your EX .

You keep checking your mobile frequently to check his/her message, if any . You type some emotional message and save them in your drafts ( thinking one day you will gather the courage to forward them ) .

whenever you log in to your face-book account, 1^st thing you do is check his/her profile to see any updates regarding change in relationship status or any uploads with xyz friends at WWW place . Your heart doesn't wants such things to happen . Still you don't delete him/her from your friends list ( just to keep a track on his/her account ) . one almost stops loving the heartless partner once the tragedy phase is over . you cry and cry and then stop for new beginning .  

Revenge phase takes on now. Brain starts working at a fast pace than before . Heart and eyes do rest now. Now you are in a revenge mood . You want that filthy animal to mortify as he did to you . Various plans do make home at your home giving way for only one master plan . You decides to date his best friend or exactly opposite his best ENEMY ( only if they are single ) . your partners best friend always loves you secretly ( to prove this line watch any random Hindi movies of 90s ) and you very well know the fact .

You slowly gets closer to them and makes them believe in you and your fake love . Those stupid nerds do believe in you ( as they have never dated any other girl and for them you are their 1^st crush, love and friend too ) . you make them fool for your own good . But when you think of choosing the enemy of your EX . It becomes quite risky and insane too . Better planning is required. Your ex will obviously get hurt ( if she/he had really loved you before ) if she/he sees you with their enemy . It is not accepted ( you enjoy the moments though ) .

once the ENEMY accepts your ( fake ) proposal , you give way to plan B now. Clicking pictures with ENEMY and uploading them on FB or updating random quotes tagging your new love's name . You think this will make him/her jealous ( forget it , they don't give a damn to your album and updates.)

Still the things are same and one fine day you log in to see he deleted you . You no more appears on his/her friends list ( cry louder this time ) and asking why you deleted , you may get gift as BLOCKED .

Wow !!!!! your plan fails tremendously leaving you alone . ENEMY is still with you ( how to get rid of him??? ) simply break up with him and move on ( please gift yourself fast track watch as a break up gift ) . This time around you MORTIFIED yourself not your lover . 

Bad habits do make a place at your mind. you start drinking and going in to hi fi pubs and disco's ( wasting your dad's hard earned money ) . Some even becomes drug addicts ending their life's for those fucking losers who don't even know how you loved them . Rum and whiskey helps you forgets that cheater however once you are out of the NASHAAA....you tend to recall the old moments spend with them . Your mobile's playlist is flooded with all sad songs ( too much now ) . Listening to songs you remember them in your memories ( believe me...one handsome hunk / sexy chic in front of you and game over . you will forget everything about the breakup shit !!!!!!!) .

There is no plan C or 3^rd round to take on . End is the only thing you see but hello.... you have something called as friends with you ( who can create trouble for you but also can get you out that mess) . They advice you to join yoga classes or attend some art of living seminars ( you don't understand any of them ) . Time heals everything and it will heal you sorrows, pains and credit card bills too ( which you have used to Impress your love before getting Dumped ) .

Some even follow tips shown in movies like JAB WE MET ...where kareena asks shahid to flush over his Ex.Gfs photo .People do follow such tricks and end up losing his/her last picture . 

I have seen people hurting themselves , to show how true their love is ( was ) . fearing parents they don't cut their nerves on hand however end up cutting their thighs ( height ) such that no one except they can see it( whats the use of cutting then ??????? ) melodrama .

Life is not only about having bf/gf..its like bournvile chocolate. You have to earn it to have it..

in a week or two you become stable...you are back to normal like before the breakup thing. One has to be really strong for coming up from a break up . After breakup you get to see many changes in you .

Now you don't wait for any important phone call , neither you are busy chatting with your love interest.

Your friends don't complain to you about your behavior , your spend quality time with your family and friends ( forgetting that jerk ) .

Things have become normal now however you find it strange..something uncommon..getting those sweet phone calls from your sweetheart ( whom you refer to as BASTARD now ) and chatting whole day ( sometimes night ) was a routine for you . As of now, phone is the most irritating electronic device for you and logging in face-book gives you heart-attacks in installments ( EMI ) .

Enjoy life and forget that bastard/bitch who have almost broke your heart ( similar to getting an heart attack ) and be happy always . DONT get MORTIFIED yourself :)

FINALLY GRADUATE!!!!!

              FINALLY GRADUATE!!!!!

  Graduating was not ‘HALWAA’. PEOPLE consider b.com degree as just ordinary one. Believe me; it takes lot many things to be a b.com graduate. Especially, when your university keeps experimenting with you.

   It happened with me and my fellow batch mates too. The year when we reached graduation year, university changed its rule. Boohoo……..yes, unexpected change….left us to suffer.

Instead of 100 marks paper, we got something called 60/40 system. Totally unaware, many of us were in trauma as the college started. Several seminars were held by college and university to guide students as well as professors (none of the students attended those lectures). Most of the coaching classes backed out saying they are blank about what to teach the students.

  Nobody cares what students must be going through. Seriously, it was a chaos. Students kept assuming paper pattern till the end of the board exams. Frankly speaking, it takes a lot of guts to assume something like ‘paper pattern’. Moreover, some of them even forwarded those in SMS.

    Well, regarding 60/40..it goes like this….

60 marks external i.e. on your own ability and what and how much cans you copy from your neighbor. 40 marks are for internal. i.e., about how hard you control your sleep during lectures and how ‘WELL’ you behave in front of your professors (no matter how badly you bitch about them after college). You should pursue the skill to remain in good books of your professors, as they going to allot you internal marks. Earning 40 marks was not cheap deal, infact it went into a costly affair. College demanded (actually university) two projects and from that they will select best among them.

Wtf….cant they ask for only one project and allot GOOD marks. Greedy people, waste of time, money as well as our energy.

Headache was doing projects twice knowing the fact that you’ll be allotted marks for only one of them. Why make two?? Doing project would have been worst if INTERNET would have been banned.

THANK YOU MR.GOOGLE, YOU HELP TO THE CORE.

   Submission was the headace...not headace, it is actually migrane. Submitting projects exactly on the due date was next to impossible for majority students. Moreover, when you get to know that your project is just the ‘carbon copy’ of your friend. You become restless until the project is submitted. Several questions do round your head, what if mam caught us?? My internals will be gone...mom will throw me out that is different thing altogether plus insult and embarrassment. Wow!!!!! You are not afraid of the punishment instead you are afraid of doing it again form the start. Once the submission is done, here come your internal exams. Syllabus unknown to half of the class till the exam. Many depend upon their friends or the person sitting next to his/her during exam. Believe me, during exam time even your enemy will ask for help.

internal exams were too much of fun….even the scholar students( scothcy)  were in liberty to copy…god spare those weak ones with easy questions.

   Scoring in internal was big question mark. All of us were sure of scoring very less marks in internals. Majority among us were doing articleship for C.S/C.A/C.W.A…and those were the initial targets. Poor kids......

  Wherever you go. You get one discussion in common regarding 60/40 pattern. Students were highly frustrated; some of them even cancelled their admission from college and applied directly from university, just to get rid of 60/40 pattern. Smart and lucky they were.

Some of us were happy as now portion is less?

     Admit cards (hall tickets) were the issue. Only a couple of days were remaining and we were asked to collect admit cards from college. Scene was still under control only till the day of 1^st exam... it was everywhere in the newspaper, newschannels and sms were doing rounds of CENTER CHANGE at the end moment.

Here, we cannot remember what we have studied a day before and now expect us to go mad on them. What was the need to change the centers at such a short notice? Pathetic situation it was. I could see some even crying.

   Exams started and ‘LEAKED’ too. Some even got SMS quoting important questions (in reality it was the same paper). As it is, we were getting messages regarding paper pattern, important questions since the beginning of the year. Many of us ignored SMS, thinking its sham.

 But it wasn’t…students who followed the SMS, were happy after the exam and some were unhappy.

  No one wanted RE-EXAM….next day, SMS started doing rounds for the remaining papers also. Many believed and followed but paper turned out to be exactly opposite. It was everywhere in the newspapers, television, internet. Re exam was announced. Students were in shock. Those who could not give 100% in the previous exam were happy as they got a chance to prove their ability but for the ones, who have followed the SMS, were tensed. Rumors spread everywhere, that all papers will be conducted again. How can someone print such bogus news???  Please care about the mental and emotional state of a student. They were already in shock; such news could get them in COMA.

   Finally, one fine day (i.e. the exact date which was announced lately by university for results) results came out. Students were skeptic about how this new pattern would fetch them good marks.

  All in all, results came out to be good...many...almost everyone had worked really hard for the last 1 month of the exam...nt actually month. Only 15days…but real hard work was when they attended lectures by sacrificing their sleep, taking out printouts for self as well as friends (friends become important for all), sitting whole day and night to study for internals. All this paid off.

  But unfortunately for some students, it did not turned out to be a fortune. Their expectation was ruined by university. For those who never imagined of crossing 1^st class…got distinction…

  FINALLY, from getting teased by our seniors as undergrads….well, Now we are PROUD GRADUATES and we will continue to crack undergrads pjs…

     ALL THE BEST TO ALL MY FINALLY GRADUATE BUDDIES!!!!!!!

 

WHEN SHE SNORES ....... HER MIDNIGHT LULLABY

WHEN SHE SNORES....... HER MIDNIGHT LULLABY 

 (The article below is purely a work of fiction and not indented to hurt anybody.)

     After a long tiring day, I was ready to doze off any time. I gathered courage to reach my hostel room. After reaching, I decided to take bath just to refresh myself from the tiring day. Clock hits 8 and it is the time for our dinner. Megha and I went to have our dinner in the hostels mess. Megha and I became friends in hostel itself but unfortunately we don’t share the same room. She stays with her cousin in the same floor and I got aarti iyer , 24 years old girl with extra fat,and beautiful face minus smile. We never interacted much except casual hi and hello, that too initiative is always taken by me. She was believed to be a silent animal working with some leading BPO.

  Back to the dinner table….. She was there sitting at one corner with full plate of rice and dal spread over it minus sabzi (may be she already finished it). She was eating & eating. She eats a lot and farts too. She loves to eat whatever is available for her (my mom would like her, as I make faces when I don’t approve of certain vegetables made for lunch or dinner).

Everyone finished their dinner and headed towards the TV area. We silently watched TV for half hour following commercial breaks which would intent us to talk with other roommates there. The alarm rang and we wished goodnight to each other.

  My eyes was searching aarti .she could not be traced anywhere but at the same corner. She was probably having her dessert for night. I went towards her and….

I’m going to sleep, please come once you finish your...aaaa…food’ I said with hesitation and looking down to her plate

She only nodded once as her mouth was full.

    I was deep into sleep. It was around 3 am. Aarti started her midnight lullaby. She literally started snoring hard. I could not control but get up and sit on my bed. I checked my cell to see the time. Oh god! It is 3 in the morning.

I hate you aarti ‘I almost shouted in anger. This beautiful fatty ignored what I said and continued to snore more louder this time.

Managing to sleep again, I took out some cotton from the drawer and put them on my ears. But this idea failed too and she continued with her midnight lullaby.

Finally I gathered the courage and called her name …aarti….aaarti….

She was not at all bothered about what is happening around her. This routine followed every night. I end up reading books or listening to songs till morning bell rings.

 One day she remained at hostel and bunked her office & I was having weekly off.

I yawned very hard and she noticed it.

You had proper sleep last night? She asked

I yawned once more and replied "NO".

Why?’ she again asked

Well, I was reading book’ I half lied

Whole night dear? ‘She asked completely shocked.

Yes, my next article is due this week . So, was doing some research 'again I lied

Okay! Even I could not sleep properly’ she blushed (I was about to laugh but controlled and wondered why she blushed?)

You have got dark circle under you eyes. Are you having some stress? She was enquiring

No, m fine .May be i need to sleep more 'I cleared.

I wondered for how many more days she is going to be here. I want either her or me to leave this hostel.

One afternoon she came in the room (I was down with fever and sleep deprived)

She was smiling and came towards me and said she is going.

I assumed she has some field work and will be back in few days.

He called me today ‘she blushed again

Who? I asked with surprise

My husband raju ‘aarti said

Your husband? You are married aarti? This time I was enquiring

She was married to mr.raju iyer, an IT engineer and he was working with an MNC. Aarti and raju had some fight which forced aarti to leave his house and make hostel as her temporary shelter. She even mentioned the reason for her fight. Raju was against her snoring at night and aarti could not control it. Now that raju has accepted the reality and apologized her, she is going back to her husbands place forever.

I half smiled to whatever she told me (inside I was dancing and excited as she is leaving and I could sleep in peace)

She packed her belongings and left after hugging me. I closed the door, shouted with happiness and started cleaning the room. While cleaning the room, I received one note. It reads dear roommate…I can only say aarti! (I took the broom at one hand  and unfolded the note and placed myself to the nearby wooden chair and started reading….

Dear roommate,   

        I have troubled you a lot in this 2 months. Your sleepless nights are not your articles but my snoring.

Please check the drawer to your left (throwing the broom I got up to reach the drawer and opened it…and I was surprised to see what she left for me)

This is what I can do to pay as compensation. Please apply this cream twice before sleeping every night. Your dark circles will disappear in two weeks, my promise. ( while reading this, i can only imagine aarti as a sales girl promoting her product to achieve sales target for the month )

Two long months and you haven’t complaint.

                       Thanks for tolerating me

                                                                                           Yours fatty,

                                                                                             Mrs. Iyer

 I folded the note as I noticed few drops of water in the note, i went near the mirror and saw tears in my eyes. Wow! I can get emotional too. Few minutes ago I wanted her to leave the place and now eaxactly that happened. I hated her so much but her letter changed my view about her.
I will miss her. Especially her midnight lullaby !